Star Gazing

Tonight I was star gazing on my yoga deck.

And saw a shooting star.

I smiled as it gave me hope.


I could hear the sounds of the ocean waves

breaking close by.

Within myself, a deep release.


Mother nature gently whispered:
Pick me, I’ve got everything you need.

“Ella Cojocaru”


I’ve been thinking a lot about the human experience and perhaps where we have taken a wrong turn. When did life become about having our eyes glued to our phones writing #blessed but forgetting to actually immerse ourselves in the experience?

When did life get so busy that it feels like we are constantly playing catch-up with no time to simply just live and exist? When did we stop remembering that we are all in this together? That we are much more alike than we are different?

Why must we create a hostile environment of honking at one another and throwing up the middle finger rather than sharing the road?
Why can’t we support each other on our chosen paths rather than judging and tearing each other down?

As I was pondering these questions and taking note of my neighbourhood in Los Angeles, I kept wondering: why don’t we create a better environment? One that we can all enjoy and appreciate. An environment that makes us believe there’s enough to go around for everyone. That we are enough. One that reminds us to treat each other with kindness.

I don’t have the answers, but I am sitting with the questions and observing myself so I can notice if I’m part of the problem or part of the solution. What role do you play in this human experience?

I dont know

Is your move temporary or permanent?

I don’t know.

When are you coming back home?

I don’t know.

Are you returning to LA?

I don’t know.

Might you move to Portland?

I don’t know.

Are there teaching opportunities where you are?

I don’t know.

Are you planning on teaching anywhere?

I don’t know.

If you dont teach, how will you support yourself?

I don’t know.


Elizabeth Gilbert had her “Eat, Pray, Love” year and I’m having my “I don’t know, taking a sabbatical and going within year.”  Maybe I’ll call it “Tacos, Weed and Swiggle.”  What’s a “swiggle”?  It’s what my partner and I call snorkeling, which we do a lot in this secret place.

Or maybe I’ll call it “Yoga Wisdom Pachamama.” For those not “woke” enough, that last word means Earth—as in, to be one with the Earth—you know, the tree hugger, hippie-dippie type who doesn’t always shower because the ocean and the moon bathe her but when she does, it’s in her outdoor shower where she can catch a glimpse of the fig tree growing next to the bursting avocados.

Does that describe me?  Maybe… Maybe it describes the new me. I don’t know.

So I don’t know… What I did know is that the US was going to be a shit show between “The Rona” (aka Covid-19) and our fucked-up government.  Not to mention this being an election year.  So I’m watching the shit show from afar.  Sitting with the question of what’s next. And truthfully, I don’t know.

Take time to notice what’s right in ourselves, in others and the world around us.  We may become so concerned with correcting ourselves, we become habituated to seeing what’s wrong.  Not only just seeing it but constantly looking for it.  The question itself “what’s wrong?” is enough to keep us on edge.

There are times to take stock and do an inventory.  There are times to learn and grow.  But spirituality and joy do not stem from trudging around in the muck of what’s wrong with others, ourselves and our life.  We do not have to seek our mistakes and errors, poking and picking at ourselves, to continue to grow.  Our lessons will be revealed to us, and they will present themselves naturally.  Growth will occur.  

Give yourself a break.  Ask yourself: What’s right? What’s good What’s true? What’s beautiful? Sometimes the lesson is discovering that the world is all right and so are you.  


Life is often a juggling act.  It’s tough to hold on when you have days (or weeks) when you just want to say, “Fuck this,” and buy a one-way ticket elsewhere.  But you didn’t come this far to stop now.

Courage is knowing when to hold on, realizing that all this work is temporary. 

To remember that you’re building a strong foundation, which takes time.  To remember that the work you put in now will give you freedom later.  You need to hold on when things get tough—and choose your courage.  

On the flip side, it’s also important to have the strength to let go when you know something has run its course.  If we’re being honest with ourselves, this can occur in friendships, romantic relationships, and careers.

Who we were then is not who we are now!  Either the energy doesn’t flow with ease (making us feel stuck, trapped, anxious, and angry), or it becomes evident that this chapter of our life is over.  Yet, we often lie to ourselves a bit longer; it takes time to accept the fact that a transition is necessary in order for us to continue growing as human beings.  

It’s tough to accept when a relationship has run its course.  It’s tough to accept when your career no longer inspires you or fits who you are today.  It’s certainly tough (and sometimes scary) to step out of your comfort zone and figure out the next chapter of your life.

So I ask: Looking at yourself right now, what part of your life requires you to have the courage to hold on a little longer? 

What aspect of your life has run its course and requires you to have the strength to let go?  

You can lie to others—but be honest with yourself.  We get one shot at life.  Don’t play small.